Yes - I Have A Brain

First of all , needed to share these beautiful pictures taken by Kelly Garasha. They are stunning, aren't they? Please send business her way - she is just a beautiful person who takes beautiful photos. We are blessed to have these. capturedphotography@cableone.net

So - results are in from the scads of tests yesterday and the fact that I do have a brain is medically proven now. Even better - no cancer anywhere else except where we've already discovered. GOOD NEWS!!! So, now I just have to run in tomorrow to the hospital for a quick xray to make sure the port is placed correctly (I've been having some weird feelings when breathing on my left side) and we're off to the races. My first chemo treatment is tentatively scheduled for Wed of next week. Yikes. I'm eager to get this shit kicked out of me, yet frightened at the thought of poison running through my veins at the same time. I'm sure this will intensify even more as it approaches closer.

Went for my echo and ekg today, and those went just fine. Nothing to report there except that my heart does have an extra little step in its beat. Explains why I'm not a real great tap dancer, but does explain my comedic timing. ;-)

The nurse we met for my ekg - her name is Anne - reminded me of a valuable lesson today when I was in there. Of course, like most medical professionals I have encountered within the last month and a half, they all seem to say at one point or another that I am way to young to be going through this. Anne stated the same type of thing this morning then asked why I was a patient of Dr. Lindquist (oncologist). After I explained she simply stated 'you'll be fine, just keep a positive attitude'. She went on to explain that her sister had a brain tumor and that it was very serious. Her sister decided to name her tumor - she called it Tom the Tumor - and her family lovingly referred to her as 'Tumor Head'. This was ten years ago.

Now, this may seem a bit mean to most I would presume - however, this goes right along with PJ & I's sense of humor. A wonderful reminder to us to lighten up, and deal with this with as much humor as possible. My sister called me recently and reminded me of this as well - she said to me that humor is a place where I easily go anyway - so go there, and find healing and comfort there. I'm there, and thank you to you all - message received loud and clear.

Our girls are not sleeping well lately - I can't remember a night where PJ and I actually slept in the same bed all night together. I'm praying this will change, as PJ and I both desperately need our sleep. Especially now.

Thank you all again for your prayers - I still need to pray hard in the mornings for strength, that stupid darkness likes to creep in again. Praying helps so much.